alone

have you ever felt so alone that it is driving you crazy. seems like all of my friends have children and no time to do anything but that. here i am with no children and not married and im 23. not that thats what i want or anything, but it would be nice to have someone in my life who is there for me. who would travel with me. i want to see the world, not all of it just places like ireland, egypt, just places not here. i want to see france and london, see places that history goes so far back it is impossible. i want to write, i want to create art work that people would love to have in their homes, i dont want fame, just to be appreciated. i want to meet people who's culture is completely different than mine, learn from them. i dont just want to live, i want to live. if you understand me. i want to take walks after dark and see what the world is like after the light goes away. i want to see nature in its own path. i have a feeling that my life is chaos. i want to meet someone who doesnt care if i order a nice fat juicy steak with a cold beer. i love food, i love wines and beers. i appreciate work people have done from simple articles in a news paper to the building of architecture. i want to meet famous people and have every day conversations with them, i want to meet royalty and do the same. maybe write a book about my traveling and the people i meet. some day soon i will no longer be able to be reached in oklahoma. it will be thailand, japan, virgin islands, scotland. ahhh to dream